One of the biggest struggles that will always bring me to my knees, in tears, depression, in confusion and broken before the feet of Jesus will forever be my identity. My entire life is full of facts that have now become lies. I was in the foster care system thinking I had real parents, only to find out that they didn't birth me, ending up with my real parents only to know that they still didn't want me, to moving from shelter to shelter and from group home to group home. No surprise to anyone that after a while someone like me will have identity issues, why, because as I was growing up I never knew who I was or even belong to.
Yes I am a Christians, a Jesus Christ follower and disciple. My identity is found in Him and no one can take that from me, that alone thou it should, it does not replace the fact that it’s still my daily struggle and part of who I am, not only as a person, but also as part of my testimony and I am not alone.
I always talk about the importance of friendship, but today I want to touch on the subject from a different point of view. When a friend you consider a brother, does not accept you as such, discontentment will come, depression will soon come near, your identity will be questioned by you, and the friendship will soon start to regress, especially if he sees nothing wrong with it. But the subject (you) will feel the pain, the rejection and so much more, the enemy will play in your mind and if you’re not careful, the enemy might just also win the battle. It’s a sad day when a friend sees a brother, but the brother only sees less-than a friend.
Paul J. Ostrom added this, “rejection from a friend/brother can make a person question how God sees him/her to the point of walking away, because he fells rejected by God.”
We need to be so careful when we experience rejection, A good example of rejection, which caused feelings of envy, jealousy, and even hate to surface in King Saul can be found in (1 Samuel 18:7-11)